Over the past two weeks, I almost totally had a cessation of menopausal symptoms. By that I mean the Terribly Emotional part, the time of the Big Sweats and Hot Flashing was almost completely gone. Of course I hadn't had a period since last spring some time... and then a week ago I was revisited by Aunt Flo. I thought maybe that would be a good thing; if I am making enough estrogen (or progesterone, or WHATEVER hormone makes that happen) to do that, then maybe I won't get more sweats, hot flashes or emotional swings.
HA HA HA.
Yeah so... the past two days I have been in a constant state of soggy. Wet hair, wet clothes. It feels like I have been standing out in the misty rain (not a downpour, at least) and getting...soggy. I have to take a couple showers a day or I feel sticky and tacky and gross. I'm thirsty all the time because I'm sweating all the time. All night. All day. I have to keep a glass of water on my night table, waking up 2 or 3 times to slake the horrible dryness that I feel.
I feel angry, frustrated, disappointed, impatient, sad, disgusted... And I keep wondering... when will it all be finished? How long will these really intense symptoms last? I've never seen any other woman do what I am doing. Just... nasty wet. I have it dripping off my eyebrows, my jaw, the entire back of my head gets so wet it drips off the end of my hair. And that's when I'm SITTING STILL. If I get busy doing something...yikes. This can't be normal. Can it??
We did some Christmas decorating last night. I've always loved doing that. This year, last year, not nearly as much. Not sure why, it just feels kind of pointless without kids here to see it. :(
Later.
